Summer Reflections

I know I made no promises to myself or anyone else about updating this space with any kind of regularity. I know I promised myself I would take it easy on myself for slipping on the diet/exercise train. I know I’m only human, but I’ve been kind of down on myself lately.

From a post back in April I made this awesome list of things I wanted to do, and I’ve done none of them. Well, I have played more Sims 4, and I did do some streaming for a bit. Set a schedule and everything, but then I couldn’t keep up with it. I’m not sure if going back to streaming is even something I want to do now.

  • Like I said earlier, actually set a schedule for Sims 4 streaming.
  • Create some board game crossword puzzles. I just think that could be a fun monthly post here. If I can find a way so people can do the crossword on the site instead of printing it out that’d be great!
  • Just post more here, even if it’s silly stuff like this post.
  • Play more solo board games! This will include finishing my current game of Legacy of Dragonholt, and working through my backlog of games since most of them I got for solo gaming anyways.

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So Much Is Changing!

It’s been far too long since my last update, but I’m not going to apologize or make excuses. Because, damnit, this is my space! I made no promises to anyone about how frequently I would update. I especially made no promises to myself. I’m terrible at keeping up with these things.

ANYWAYS! Some crazy life stuff’s been going on. If you follow my twitter account you’ve probably heard bits and pieces.

First, in early October I was in a bit of a fender bender. Working with insurance companies is a pain, but that’s all finally resolved.

Second, we found a house before we were really set on buying something. Went and saw it, fell in love with it, and now we’re buying it! Closing in 5 week. Crazy.

Second point one? Since we’re buying a new house we’re now having to sell ours. Keeping this place show ready with 2 cats, a dog, and a toddler is not easy. It’s starting to feel more like routine, but it’s still a struggle. Especially when we have to pick up and leave on a Saturday after being in the house all morning.

Third, buying a house and selling a house at the same time is extremely stressful. I do not recommend, but it’s basically impossible to avoid if you already own one house I supposed. Also, doing these things around the holiday: I don’t recommend. I’m bummed because Christmas decorations won’t be going up in either place. We’re moving 2 weeks before Christmas so we’ll most likely still be trying to get everything in order at the new place by then. On the plus side this means we don’t have to host any family at Christmas time!

Fourth, figured I could through a quick weight loss update in here too. 7 weeks on intermittent fasting, and I’m down 12.8 pounds! Feeling pretty good about the overall progress. I also had my wellness screening, and the only thing that came back high was my BMI (which I expected). My cholesterol levels were worse than last year, but still in the heathy range. Just surprised me to see such a difference.

And that’s really everything that’s been going on…

Oh! My local gaming group did their Extra Life fundraiser, and it was so much fun! We’ve raised nearly 10k for our local Children’s Hospital, and I couldn’t be more proud of the people I game with. šŸ˜€

Doing Things!

I’m sad at myself that my last post was 5 days ago. However, in that 5 days I spent some time on myself. I watched a movie and cried my eyes out. I FINALLY recorded my first segment for The Shuffle. I spent a good amount of time with friends and board games. I actually went out for breakfast with my boyfriend and daughter. I worked on a puzzle, and read a little. I did my yoga routine TWICE, and, lastly, I caught up with some friends via the internet that I haven’t connected with in a while.

Today I’m feeling much better. I’m making priorities instead of letting all the things I want to do overwhelm me. I’m using my bullet journal for what it’s meant. LISTS! I bought some new pens, a new pencil case, and some stationary. I’m going to write ACTUAL LETTERS and put them IN THE MAIL to send to far away friends, and I’m beyond excited about this.

So, this is my rambling about how I handled my mental health. My hope is this will stay as a reminder to myself that it’s okay to have bad days, and to keep reminding myself that the bad days won’t last forever.

I think, in a future post I’m going to just take pictures of my pen stash. Also washi tape. It’s really starting to get out of hand!

I Need to do The Things

It looks perfect outside my office window. It felt like fall on my way into the office today. I just want to be out there. Maybe with a book. Maybe for a walk. Maybe just to sit and close my eyes. According to my phone it’s 61 degrees, and I don’t see a single cloud in the sky.

Here’s the view from my office. I know it doesn’t look like much, but that sky is just screaming at me to be outside.

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I’m feeling, well, to be honest, not much this morning. I have a headache and no motivation for work or really anything. I’ve been struggling with this feeling for a few days now. When I get home from work I do all the things that need to be done for the kiddo, but nothing extra. I’ve stopped doing my yoga. I just sit on the couch. Maybe I’ll play Sims 4, but generally I just sit there. Not really focusing on the TV, the boyfriend, or anything.

I know it’s a phase, and I know it’ll pass. I need to find the motivations/will/strength to just do the things. I need to sit down and record my first segment for The Shuffle. I have my notes written for it. It will take me less than half an hour to record and edit it. I just can’t seem to make myself do it.

Writing this is just making me sad too. Should I even post this? I’m not even keeping up with the goal I gave myself for this blog, but I’ve decided that doesn’t matter so much since it’s my personal space. I can write as much as I want and when I feel like it, right?

I keep getting frustrated with myself because I have all these ideas and things I want to do, but then I can’t find the time/energy/motivation to actually do them. I get scared too because some of the ideas are so big and over my head, and I’m terrified to even try. So instead I sit here and get angry with myself for not doing anything. What a vicious circle.

Tonight I’m going to do my yoga routine. Even if I do nothing else. I’m going to do that. I need to. It’ll make me feel better both physically and mentally. I at least haven’t been skipping on my walks at work. Probably because I like the excuse to get up from my desk. Maybe I’ll go for a walk outside today. Though I’m afraid that’ll mean I won’t want to come back in…

Birthday Thoughts

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Yesterday was my birthday. I’m officially in my mid 30s. I used to spend a whole weekĀ celebrating my birthday when I was in my 20s. Nights out with friends, friends over for board games, all sorts of food, but now I’m happy with a nice dinner with the boyfriend and well wishes from friends.

I did get a few awesome gifts from the boyfriend and co-workers, one of my closets friends took me out for lunch, and the boyfriend took me out for dinner since we got a baby-sitter! It was overall a good day!

39051761_10100327756455472_7372192796716826624_oWhen I was younger and my birthday came along I would spend birthday money on school supplies. I loved, loved, loved buying school supplies! School always started shortly after my birthday, and I was always so excited to go back. Now, as an adult person, I still LOVE to buy school supplies. I just buy them year round now. Since I’ve been bullet journaling for over a year now I’m constantly buying new pens, washi tape, fun stickers, pen cases, and so many other cute/fun school supplies that I never really got to enjoy as a kid!

Now, once my birthday is over I’m just ready for fall! There are no other summer holidays I really have to look forward to. Labor Day is just a day off work, and, if I’m lucky, a day of day drinking and grilling. I’m already ready for fall weather, leaves on the ground, pumpkin everything, and scarves!

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So, I’m another year older, another year wiser(?), andĀ another year closer to actually being and adult. When does that happen by the way? Some days I feel like an adult, but most days I feel like I’m just trying to get through it. Having a kid hasn’t made that feel any different. If anything it’s made me feel like I know even less than I thought I did!

Hope you all have had/will have the happiest of birthdays this year! And many more! I’m happy to have all the amazing people I have in my life, and couldn’t imagine a better place to be right now. ā¤