You May Be Wondering…

What I’ve been up to lately. The 3 people out there that actually read this silly thing. Well, the truth of the matter is I haven’t been up to much. I barely hit the gym in the last few months, but I have watched a lot of Game of Thrones. 6 more episodes and we’ll be ready for the new season Sunday!

I haven’t even really done much board gaming or Sims 4 playing. I have read the first 3 Jem and the Hologram graphic novels and all of Locke and Key. So that’s something. To be perfectly honest I’ve been in a bit of a slump, and it’s taken me a while to start seeing a way out. I’m getting there. Slowly, and I’m looking forward to getting back to some Sims 4 streaming actually! I’m going to start working on a regular streaming schedule, and I’m looking into ways to record my sessions to post to Youtube, maybe. I’m still not sure if that’s something I want to do. I’ve spent some time building stuff lately, and I want to stretch that creative muscle some more so I’m thinking about doing some speed build videos, but there’s already SO MANY of those I’m not really sure if it’s even worth it, but if I’m going to be doing the building anyways I may as well record it and see what happens.

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So Much Is Changing!

It’s been far too long since my last update, but I’m not going to apologize or make excuses. Because, damnit, this is my space! I made no promises to anyone about how frequently I would update. I especially made no promises to myself. I’m terrible at keeping up with these things.

ANYWAYS! Some crazy life stuff’s been going on. If you follow my twitter account you’ve probably heard bits and pieces.

First, in early October I was in a bit of a fender bender. Working with insurance companies is a pain, but that’s all finally resolved.

Second, we found a house before we were really set on buying something. Went and saw it, fell in love with it, and now we’re buying it! Closing in 5 week. Crazy.

Second point one? Since we’re buying a new house we’re now having to sell ours. Keeping this place show ready with 2 cats, a dog, and a toddler is not easy. It’s starting to feel more like routine, but it’s still a struggle. Especially when we have to pick up and leave on a Saturday after being in the house all morning.

Third, buying a house and selling a house at the same time is extremely stressful. I do not recommend, but it’s basically impossible to avoid if you already own one house I supposed. Also, doing these things around the holiday: I don’t recommend. I’m bummed because Christmas decorations won’t be going up in either place. We’re moving 2 weeks before Christmas so we’ll most likely still be trying to get everything in order at the new place by then. On the plus side this means we don’t have to host any family at Christmas time!

Fourth, figured I could through a quick weight loss update in here too. 7 weeks on intermittent fasting, and I’m down 12.8 pounds! Feeling pretty good about the overall progress. I also had my wellness screening, and the only thing that came back high was my BMI (which I expected). My cholesterol levels were worse than last year, but still in the heathy range. Just surprised me to see such a difference.

And that’s really everything that’s been going on…

Oh! My local gaming group did their Extra Life fundraiser, and it was so much fun! We’ve raised nearly 10k for our local Children’s Hospital, and I couldn’t be more proud of the people I game with. 😀

Health and Weight Loss Update

It’s been ten days since I started intermittent fasting to help me stay within my calorie deficit. I really thought it would be difficult to skip breakfast, but so far it hasn’t! I was already waiting until 9 a.m. to eat breakfast, so waiting another two hours hasn’t been bad. I don’t feel any more hungry than normal before lunch. I drink my 14 ounces of coffee and roughly 60 ounces of water before lunch. Last week I prepped bigger lunches thinking I was going to be starving, but then I could only eat about half of them. So this week I packed a normal sized lunch for me, and it’s been great!

A few things I’ve noticed (good and kind of meh) during the last ten days.

  • I’ve lost 4 pounds since 9/23.
  • I feel more awake and alert through the day, not overly tired after lunch like usual.
  • I get up and move more because I have to go to the bathroom so much!
  • I drink a minimum of a gallon of water every day.
  • I’m cold all morning, and sometimes in the afternoon too.
  • Having only an 8 hour window to eat in has helped me stay at a deficit.
  • Working out again has been great, though I’ve twinged something in my shoulder (owwww).

Overall, I’m feeling pretty good about this. I’ve been able to splurge a little more at dinner time without feeling guilty and going over my deficit. I’ve been staying between 1200-1500 calories each day. Last weekend I thought I wasn’t going to be able to skip breakfast because I always make a big breakfast for our tiny family, but I didn’t get hungry either day until close to 11. This means in the future I can plan a delicious brunch!

I’ve been keeping a close eye on macros. My carb intake has always been high, but it’s generally lower than my usual now. I’m focusing on increasing my protein intake for next week. Going to add Greek yogurt to my snacks. Maybe replacing the fruit with that.

Also, this week I did get back to my yoga and free weight at home routine. As I said above I twinged my shoulder last night, but otherwise these small workouts have made me feel a lot better physically and mentally. I’m feeling pretty good about all aspects of life right now. Yay!

Health and Weight Loss Rambling

Warning: This subject may be sensitive for some people, and also this is long, rambly, and just a stream of consciousness. You’ve been warned!

I want to talk about health and weight loss. I know it’s a sensitive subject for many, but it helps me stay motivated to write it all out.

I have lost and gained and lost and gained and lost and gained for so long. I was on a good weight loss path again when I got pregnant. Of course I gained then, but it was way more than necessary. I stopped even trying to eat healthily. I was just constantly hungry. After having Lizzy I got back on the scale and was nearly forty pounds over the weight I was when I got pregnant. I cried. I cried a lot.

When I was younger, even in high school, weight was not something I ever had to worry about. I ate what I wanted, drank what I wanted, and was constantly being told how thin and fit I was. The thing is, I was also very active. I never learned how to cook. Never learned what was healthy vs unhealthy. Over the last, ugh, so many years I’ve learned a lot about food, preparing food, calorie counting, every single diet under the sun, and now I’m trying to learn how to just take care of myself.

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Who Let The Dog Out?

It appears life has continued to move regardless of my writing about it or not. Well, duh, right? I promised myself I would post here at least twice a week, and I keep failing myself. I keep trying to find something clever or cute to post instead of just being me. So, yeah. I guess I should really just be me.

Yesterday morning the boyfriend flew to NC for work. He’s flying back tonight so will miss all the craziness from the hurricane (by the way, everyone out there please be safe!). Usually we crate the dog each night, but it was just weird to have the whole bed to myself. So I let him stay out. We don’t do this normally because the two cats sometimes like to cause a ruckus at night which makes the dog bark and the whole house wake up. Nothing crazy happened last night though! And it was nice to have the dog out and more alert since it was just me and the kiddo home.

I spent a good amount of time “play” games with the kiddo over the weekend. Got started on my 2nd solo campaign of Legacy of Dragonholt, and I’m going to knock off a few more games in my annual challenge for the year! So, I have all that going for me.

Also deciding what to talk about for next month’s The Shuffle episode, and still fiddling with lighting and equipment trying to get video recording down. I feel pretty confident in my ability to actually do the recording now. It’s the editing I’m getting terrified of, but I need some video to play with to really see what’s what. I also probably need some sort of intro and outro? Most likely… So, if anyone knows things that can help I’m all ears!

Doing Things!

I’m sad at myself that my last post was 5 days ago. However, in that 5 days I spent some time on myself. I watched a movie and cried my eyes out. I FINALLY recorded my first segment for The Shuffle. I spent a good amount of time with friends and board games. I actually went out for breakfast with my boyfriend and daughter. I worked on a puzzle, and read a little. I did my yoga routine TWICE, and, lastly, I caught up with some friends via the internet that I haven’t connected with in a while.

Today I’m feeling much better. I’m making priorities instead of letting all the things I want to do overwhelm me. I’m using my bullet journal for what it’s meant. LISTS! I bought some new pens, a new pencil case, and some stationary. I’m going to write ACTUAL LETTERS and put them IN THE MAIL to send to far away friends, and I’m beyond excited about this.

So, this is my rambling about how I handled my mental health. My hope is this will stay as a reminder to myself that it’s okay to have bad days, and to keep reminding myself that the bad days won’t last forever.

I think, in a future post I’m going to just take pictures of my pen stash. Also washi tape. It’s really starting to get out of hand!

I Need to do The Things

It looks perfect outside my office window. It felt like fall on my way into the office today. I just want to be out there. Maybe with a book. Maybe for a walk. Maybe just to sit and close my eyes. According to my phone it’s 61 degrees, and I don’t see a single cloud in the sky.

Here’s the view from my office. I know it doesn’t look like much, but that sky is just screaming at me to be outside.

morning

I’m feeling, well, to be honest, not much this morning. I have a headache and no motivation for work or really anything. I’ve been struggling with this feeling for a few days now. When I get home from work I do all the things that need to be done for the kiddo, but nothing extra. I’ve stopped doing my yoga. I just sit on the couch. Maybe I’ll play Sims 4, but generally I just sit there. Not really focusing on the TV, the boyfriend, or anything.

I know it’s a phase, and I know it’ll pass. I need to find the motivations/will/strength to just do the things. I need to sit down and record my first segment for The Shuffle. I have my notes written for it. It will take me less than half an hour to record and edit it. I just can’t seem to make myself do it.

Writing this is just making me sad too. Should I even post this? I’m not even keeping up with the goal I gave myself for this blog, but I’ve decided that doesn’t matter so much since it’s my personal space. I can write as much as I want and when I feel like it, right?

I keep getting frustrated with myself because I have all these ideas and things I want to do, but then I can’t find the time/energy/motivation to actually do them. I get scared too because some of the ideas are so big and over my head, and I’m terrified to even try. So instead I sit here and get angry with myself for not doing anything. What a vicious circle.

Tonight I’m going to do my yoga routine. Even if I do nothing else. I’m going to do that. I need to. It’ll make me feel better both physically and mentally. I at least haven’t been skipping on my walks at work. Probably because I like the excuse to get up from my desk. Maybe I’ll go for a walk outside today. Though I’m afraid that’ll mean I won’t want to come back in…